Your troubles will be miles away.

Well, Chicago was one of the best things to happen to me. I miss it already and I've only been home about two days. I miss Julia a lot. I got so used to spending so much time around her, now I feel lonely haha. I'm glad to be back in a way, though, because now I get to see Tia and Zac, and the few others I wanna see. I spent a few days in Milwaukee with some close friends, including my best friend. I love him more than life, and I simply always will. He keeps me positive when things are looking down. I was ridiculous for thinking I could be okay without him in my life- I was so wrong.

Anyway, I don't feel like updating much.
Here's a picture or two.

News.

As of 2:30 this morning, I actually have a boyfriend. (:



Zackary Ward Simoneau.
Yeah, it's official.




I have to wake up in 6 hours.
Off to Chicago for the week!
<3

I'm in Miami, trick.

No, I'm really not. I'm gonna be in Chicago in 3 days, though. It's sooo close. I enjoy getting some breathing room from everything here, even if it's only 5 days. Vacations are lovely.

So, breakdown of my life. Love UNCG. Zac keeps me smiling. School's out, for two weeks. Then it's online classes. Got tattooed last week and love it. I stay content with pretty much everything. (:

Went to Greensboro last night and today. Got a lot of work done for my transfer in the fall. Looked at some off campus apartments, because the housing application deadline was last week, therefore it's doubtful I'd get a place on campus. Britany came to the hotel, and we were bored so we went to Will's new place in High Point. It was awkward seeing Hunter- I avoid him always now. Today, I took a tour around UNCG again, talked to an admissions lady to figure out exactly what I had left to do. Emailed the head of my major to set up an appointment with an adviser to figure out classes. Looked at off campus housing like I said. It's going to be such an adjustment living three hours from home. Yeah, that's not far. But I'm used to my parents being right there. Eh, everyone's gotta go off on their own at some point.

I haven't updated lately because there hasn't been much change. I spend almost everyday with Tia or Zac. He takes care of me all the time and I can't thank him enough for everything. He puts a smile on my face. If I need something, he's the first to get it for me. He's just a real incredible guy. And of COURSE, as soon as I find that near me, I'm moving. :/

Okay, I'm done.

So you see...

This world doesn't matter to me.
I'd give up all I have just to breathe
the same air as you til the day that I die.
I can't take my eyes off of you.

Today will be the day we reach the sky.

Things are going well. I met a new guy I love spending time with. We see each other everyday. He's a good guy in just about every way. He has a job, a house, a car, he pays for stuff which is so cute. When we're together, it's just always so much fun. I've realized I don't despise Wilmington like I thought I did. I just surrounded myself with the wrong people this whole time. Now I love it here.

26 days until I leave for Chicago. That's less than 4 weeks! I'm so excited about it. I miss it up there a lot, and this time when I go up, I can actually do stuff outside, seeing as Sam wouldn't do stuff outside because he hates the snow, blahblahblah. I don't know what it is, but I really enjoy the feeling of being so far away for a few days. I can't imagine moving there right now, but maybe someday my home really will be up there. Who knows, only time will tell.

I am so thankful that my friendship with shithead has survived everything we've been through. He called me the other night and we were talking. He was like, "Find us a house to play a house show there on my birthday! And get other bands. We need to do it big." So I told him I would try to find somewhere, and he was like, "NO! You won't try. You'll do it! You love me, so you'll do it." Haha, I don't know what it is about him, but I love the kid... somehow (: We've survived almost a year of tormenting each other and I'm so glad we've gone this far. He's really the only person I can see myself going through this with. I mean we went from meeting at his show, to talking everyday, to basically being in a relationship- flying to see each other like once a month, to breaking up, to me being stupid and thinking I could end this friendship, to not talking for a month, to being about as close as we were in the beginning. It's been a ridiculous cycle, but geez we've been right there through it all.

That about wraps it up. I have 2 weeks of school left. So stoked to be out. Then a week later I'm gone. (:

River Flows In You

All I wanna do is play piano now. And stay in Wilmington. I don't wanna move. I'm not ready. I want my own place, but here where I feel safe and have my friends.

Days go by and I grow stronger

It takes time, but I never let go.




36 days. I'm so happy to be heading back out there. I'm so excited to see everyone. I'm so excited to take a break from everything going on here. Once I step on that plane... no, once I get to the airport, it will really be a breath of fresh air. Something I haven't had in about 3 months. Don't get me wrong, I really do enjoy NC. It's just always good to step away from somewhere you spend everyday and just take a vacation. Vacations are relaxing, a time when you're not supposed to think about the things that stress you out and keep you upset day after day. It's a time when you step aside from it all and spend some time with yourself, do things for you. It's a time that I'm looking very forward to having. Since I'm not moving up there, the next best thing is to go visit.

Anyway, Mom and Dad are still in Florida. They spent Sunday and Monday in Mississippi with their best friends, casino hopping. They won some money and are giving me some. Mom also apparently is getting me a ring. I'm really excited for them to get home. I miss them a lot. It's so quiet without us all being together, whether we're laughing about something or bitching about something. My family means more to me than anyone can understand.

I have to leave now for class. I really don't want to, but I have to go. It's okay, only 4 weeks left. It will go by in a heartbeat, then it'll be time for summer and online classes. I cannot wait.



The summer's taking me to California, but I won't go until you know that what I say is true. When everything you've ever loved has left you, I'll be there, I'll be there for you.