Tell me where you are & I'll find you.

A lot has happened in the last two weeks.

First, today is my 20th birthday. It doesn't feel like it at all. I can't believe I'm no longer a teenager.

Second, I got my apartment in Greensboro. I'll get my apartment number and stuff at the end of next month in my email.

Third, I spent the last week with my parents and Tia in Florida. It was so much fun, we didn't wanna come home. But as I've said before, all good things come to an end. It was much needed, and much appreciated.

Fourth, the last night we were in Florida, my parents saw my side and flipped out. They told me they weren't paying for me to go to school or live in my apartment. If I wanted all that, I had to pay since I went behind their backs and got another tattoo. But even in the last few days, we came to an agreement that if my mom bought some fade cream and I used it, that I'd be off the hook again.

Well, mom and dad went to a shop in town and talked to a tattoo artist, and I talked to Al, and mom and dad won't make me use the cream because it's more painful to remove even with the cream than to actually get a tattoo. So I'm pretty sure I get to keep all my ink AND go to school on them. That's such a relief.

Fifth, I'm in love with the new Hit the Lights CD. It's soooo good. They've always been good, but this CD has shown so many improvements. They've definitely taken a walk down the powerpop road for this one. Another new CD I can't wait for is the new Scene Aesthetic CD. One of the songs leaked, and I'm in love with it. Some of the lyrics are at the bottom.

Sixth, I got a new phone. I thought I was getting an iPhone when I got it on eBay, but I obviously didn't look at EVERYTHING in the description. It clearly says "MINI" on the back of the phone, even in the pictures, but I didn't pay attention to that. So now, I have a mini iPhone. It's a pain in the ass at times because of its size, but I like it.

Seventh, I move in less than two months and that kind of scares me. Yeah, I'll only be 3 hours from home, but still. I've spent the last 20 years with my parents, and now I'm out in another city by myself. I don't know what I'm going to do without Tia, though. We won't be able to just show up at each others' houses, no lunch dates in between classes, etc. It really sucks, but at least she can come visit on weekends. Also, luckily I'll have people like Aaron, Summer, and Britany not far at all from me. I won't be completely alone. The downside is I have to live with someone I don't know. That will be a huge change, but it's something I need to get used to. Hopefully my roommate is cool.

Eighth, I've been talking and spending more time with Zac. Yesterday was a pretty groundbreaking day for us over the last month. I'm going to the mountains with him for the 4th. That should be pretty fun. I've missed him so much. I was an idiot when we broke up. I'm just glad he's still willing to put up with me. I don't know what I'm gonna do without him when I go to Greensboro either. I'm proud of him, though. He's going back to school. That's something I've been telling him to do for the last few months. I'm glad he's actually doing it.

Well, that's pretty much everything going on in my life. I think I've written enough now. (:

PS. Happy birthday to meeeeeeeee.

For the longest time, I thought I lost the best of me, but I'll be damned if I quit now and that's for sure. All I ever wanted was for you to look at me and know I'm all yours. Like the penguins need their wings for deep cold water dives. Like the sun needs the moon to keep it on course. When you touch me, I know there is purpose in my life. Just know I'm all yours. I'm a mess. I confess that I'm nothing without you, and there's nothing I can do to prove to you I'm being honest. Now I see everything and yes, I've known it all along. I was so lost, but I'm back. And I finally know now where my heart belongs.

Once again...

I forgot I had this, haha. When you get out of sync with updating, you tend to forget it exists.

Anyway, life. Update. GOGOGO.

I move in two months. Zac and I broke up, because I'm an idiot, but we're fixing things. Spending a week with the fellas was something I totally needed. Tia came too, and it was just way too much fun. It ended too early, but all good things come to an end.

I go to Greensboro next Thursday to get an apartment! I'm so stoked. I'll have a place to live, yay!

I also already got my classes figured out for the fall:
MWF:
10-10:50: Intro to Narratives
11-11:50: Spanish 2
*(only MW) 3-5:50: Fundamentals of Drawing

TTh:
11-12:15: Survey of Western Art
3:30-4:45: Intro to Religious Studies

It's not too bad of a load. But I'm going to buckle down a lot harder now that I'm not in a community college, and because I'll be living on my own. I won't have anyone to pester me about my work. It's all up to me now.

Fin.

Your troubles will be miles away.

Well, Chicago was one of the best things to happen to me. I miss it already and I've only been home about two days. I miss Julia a lot. I got so used to spending so much time around her, now I feel lonely haha. I'm glad to be back in a way, though, because now I get to see Tia and Zac, and the few others I wanna see. I spent a few days in Milwaukee with some close friends, including my best friend. I love him more than life, and I simply always will. He keeps me positive when things are looking down. I was ridiculous for thinking I could be okay without him in my life- I was so wrong.

Anyway, I don't feel like updating much.
Here's a picture or two.

News.

As of 2:30 this morning, I actually have a boyfriend. (:



Zackary Ward Simoneau.
Yeah, it's official.




I have to wake up in 6 hours.
Off to Chicago for the week!
<3

I'm in Miami, trick.

No, I'm really not. I'm gonna be in Chicago in 3 days, though. It's sooo close. I enjoy getting some breathing room from everything here, even if it's only 5 days. Vacations are lovely.

So, breakdown of my life. Love UNCG. Zac keeps me smiling. School's out, for two weeks. Then it's online classes. Got tattooed last week and love it. I stay content with pretty much everything. (:

Went to Greensboro last night and today. Got a lot of work done for my transfer in the fall. Looked at some off campus apartments, because the housing application deadline was last week, therefore it's doubtful I'd get a place on campus. Britany came to the hotel, and we were bored so we went to Will's new place in High Point. It was awkward seeing Hunter- I avoid him always now. Today, I took a tour around UNCG again, talked to an admissions lady to figure out exactly what I had left to do. Emailed the head of my major to set up an appointment with an adviser to figure out classes. Looked at off campus housing like I said. It's going to be such an adjustment living three hours from home. Yeah, that's not far. But I'm used to my parents being right there. Eh, everyone's gotta go off on their own at some point.

I haven't updated lately because there hasn't been much change. I spend almost everyday with Tia or Zac. He takes care of me all the time and I can't thank him enough for everything. He puts a smile on my face. If I need something, he's the first to get it for me. He's just a real incredible guy. And of COURSE, as soon as I find that near me, I'm moving. :/

Okay, I'm done.

So you see...

This world doesn't matter to me.
I'd give up all I have just to breathe
the same air as you til the day that I die.
I can't take my eyes off of you.

Today will be the day we reach the sky.

Things are going well. I met a new guy I love spending time with. We see each other everyday. He's a good guy in just about every way. He has a job, a house, a car, he pays for stuff which is so cute. When we're together, it's just always so much fun. I've realized I don't despise Wilmington like I thought I did. I just surrounded myself with the wrong people this whole time. Now I love it here.

26 days until I leave for Chicago. That's less than 4 weeks! I'm so excited about it. I miss it up there a lot, and this time when I go up, I can actually do stuff outside, seeing as Sam wouldn't do stuff outside because he hates the snow, blahblahblah. I don't know what it is, but I really enjoy the feeling of being so far away for a few days. I can't imagine moving there right now, but maybe someday my home really will be up there. Who knows, only time will tell.

I am so thankful that my friendship with shithead has survived everything we've been through. He called me the other night and we were talking. He was like, "Find us a house to play a house show there on my birthday! And get other bands. We need to do it big." So I told him I would try to find somewhere, and he was like, "NO! You won't try. You'll do it! You love me, so you'll do it." Haha, I don't know what it is about him, but I love the kid... somehow (: We've survived almost a year of tormenting each other and I'm so glad we've gone this far. He's really the only person I can see myself going through this with. I mean we went from meeting at his show, to talking everyday, to basically being in a relationship- flying to see each other like once a month, to breaking up, to me being stupid and thinking I could end this friendship, to not talking for a month, to being about as close as we were in the beginning. It's been a ridiculous cycle, but geez we've been right there through it all.

That about wraps it up. I have 2 weeks of school left. So stoked to be out. Then a week later I'm gone. (: