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I feel like I have so much on my mind, but at the same time my mind feels free. Things have been looking up so much, I couldn't be more thankful. There's one person I couldn't do any of these things without- the Big Man upstairs. I've had such a clearer view of life since I decided to get close to Him again. Everything has just fallen into place almost perfectly. I'm doing so much better in school. All the Greensboro stuff is going amazingly. My goals are coming together and I'm more content with everything since before all the Sam stuff. Meaning almost a year since I've been completely content.

Speaking of him, we talked yesterday and it was like it used to be. I don't mean cute, corny stuff. I mean when we were BEST FRIENDS and acted like it. We were talking and he was like, "Can you help us get a show on my birthday in Raleigh?" and I told him, "I mean, I guessssssss. But that means I have to see you, UGH. ;)" He replied, "I'm actually really excited to see you Tina. I miss you :]" Seeing him tell me that he wanted to see me and he missed me was a reassurance that through everything we've been through over the last year, everything will be fine and we'll stay friends. We've been through many rough spots, but we've been able to overcome it all, and we're still somehow staying friends. That's so relieving.

There still feels like there's so much more in my head, but I can't untangle everything into words to write in here. If I think of more, I'll come back to this.


Thank you, God for giving me good friends, family, and everything in my life. I couldn't do any of this without you.

P-p-p-poker face, p-p-poker face.

So, ixnay on the otentialpay. Nothing will come of it, but it's fine. I just want to see my best friend. I'm in the library, working on my biology paper with my lab partner. Well, we're getting SOME work done on it. More than we had, hahaha. I don't know. I want it to be April or May. Or August. The sooner I'm out of Wilmington, the better. (: I don't know what to say. I'm done with my update.

I heard somebody call my name.

Best. Weekend. Ever.




That's really all there is to say.






I really hope this has potential.

Can you save me from this wreckage I've become?

These past few days have been very good to me. I'm starting to get closer to God each day and I love it. I really don't know what to write. I made this to vent, but now that I have no problems, I have nothing to vent about anymore.






Life is good.

The tides have changed once again.

I'm not seeing Pat when I was supposed to. It turns out that Rose Funeral can't afford to do the whole tour, so they drop off on the 27th. They were supposed to be here April 3. But good news is they're coming to Danville AND to Raleigh in early May. I'm fine with that, as long as I get to see my best friend.

April 24 & 25, I'm doing the 30 hour famine with Conor. I'm pretty stoked about that.

Don't have much to talk about. I'm never sad anymore. Happy? Yes. Angry? I have been lately at a few people, but they're out of my life now, for good.

Madd's birthday is Sunday. Party Saturday. So stoked.

Today is the day.

Got my car fixed. It only cost $900 instead of $2,000. I'm so tired of my stupid Jetta. It's done nothing but cause problems. I'm at Tia's watching Click. It's been so beautiful the last few days. Got tattooed yesterday. Went to Raleigh- biggest waste of time. Stayed at Conor's. Went to the park and played tennis with Tia and Conor today. Next month needs to hurry and get here. I'm officially going to Chicago/Milwaukee May 14-18! I just bought my ticket today.



Time for pizza.

Blow the candles out.

So, I don't know when I get my car again. It had to go to the shop, and apparently needs over $2,000 in work done to it, according to the Volkswagen people. Screw that, we're shopping around for cheaper mechanics.



That is all.

Redo.

I'm restarting this blog. Most of my posts were depressing and all about one person. I'm tired of thatl Therefore, I'm taking the depressed stuff and throwing it away. My life is past that chapter now.


Positives:
- Moving in 5 months to Greensboro.
- Going to UNCG, though I got into UWM.
- Got my best friend back. I'm working on things. I've learned I don't need him every second of every day. I don't need to talk to him all the time. That will just probably push him away again. I'm going to hold back a lot more now. I lost him once, I'm not trying to lose him again.
- This Friday starts Spring Break. I'm also getting tattooed.
- Next month: Papa Pat, NFG, FOB, and maybe Augusta, GA.
- May 14-18, I'm going to Chicago/Milwaukee as my vacation.
- I'm also doing summer classes so I can get my degree.
- My friends and family keep me so happy, and I met a guy I am starting to feel a connection with.

Negatives:
- Living on my own will be scary, especially with no roommates.
- Work hasn't been giving me very many hours lately.


As you can see, the positives outweigh the negatives by a lot. I'm so happy with everything right now, you wouldn't believe it. Everything really is coming together nicely.