This world doesn't matter to me.
I'd give up all I have just to breathe
the same air as you til the day that I die.
I can't take my eyes off of you.
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Today will be the day we reach the sky.
Things are going well. I met a new guy I love spending time with. We see each other everyday. He's a good guy in just about every way. He has a job, a house, a car, he pays for stuff which is so cute. When we're together, it's just always so much fun. I've realized I don't despise Wilmington like I thought I did. I just surrounded myself with the wrong people this whole time. Now I love it here.
26 days until I leave for Chicago. That's less than 4 weeks! I'm so excited about it. I miss it up there a lot, and this time when I go up, I can actually do stuff outside, seeing as Sam wouldn't do stuff outside because he hates the snow, blahblahblah. I don't know what it is, but I really enjoy the feeling of being so far away for a few days. I can't imagine moving there right now, but maybe someday my home really will be up there. Who knows, only time will tell.
I am so thankful that my friendship with shithead has survived everything we've been through. He called me the other night and we were talking. He was like, "Find us a house to play a house show there on my birthday! And get other bands. We need to do it big." So I told him I would try to find somewhere, and he was like, "NO! You won't try. You'll do it! You love me, so you'll do it." Haha, I don't know what it is about him, but I love the kid... somehow (: We've survived almost a year of tormenting each other and I'm so glad we've gone this far. He's really the only person I can see myself going through this with. I mean we went from meeting at his show, to talking everyday, to basically being in a relationship- flying to see each other like once a month, to breaking up, to me being stupid and thinking I could end this friendship, to not talking for a month, to being about as close as we were in the beginning. It's been a ridiculous cycle, but geez we've been right there through it all.
That about wraps it up. I have 2 weeks of school left. So stoked to be out. Then a week later I'm gone. (:
26 days until I leave for Chicago. That's less than 4 weeks! I'm so excited about it. I miss it up there a lot, and this time when I go up, I can actually do stuff outside, seeing as Sam wouldn't do stuff outside because he hates the snow, blahblahblah. I don't know what it is, but I really enjoy the feeling of being so far away for a few days. I can't imagine moving there right now, but maybe someday my home really will be up there. Who knows, only time will tell.
I am so thankful that my friendship with shithead has survived everything we've been through. He called me the other night and we were talking. He was like, "Find us a house to play a house show there on my birthday! And get other bands. We need to do it big." So I told him I would try to find somewhere, and he was like, "NO! You won't try. You'll do it! You love me, so you'll do it." Haha, I don't know what it is about him, but I love the kid... somehow (: We've survived almost a year of tormenting each other and I'm so glad we've gone this far. He's really the only person I can see myself going through this with. I mean we went from meeting at his show, to talking everyday, to basically being in a relationship- flying to see each other like once a month, to breaking up, to me being stupid and thinking I could end this friendship, to not talking for a month, to being about as close as we were in the beginning. It's been a ridiculous cycle, but geez we've been right there through it all.
That about wraps it up. I have 2 weeks of school left. So stoked to be out. Then a week later I'm gone. (:
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
River Flows In You
All I wanna do is play piano now. And stay in Wilmington. I don't wanna move. I'm not ready. I want my own place, but here where I feel safe and have my friends.
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Days go by and I grow stronger
It takes time, but I never let go.
36 days. I'm so happy to be heading back out there. I'm so excited to see everyone. I'm so excited to take a break from everything going on here. Once I step on that plane... no, once I get to the airport, it will really be a breath of fresh air. Something I haven't had in about 3 months. Don't get me wrong, I really do enjoy NC. It's just always good to step away from somewhere you spend everyday and just take a vacation. Vacations are relaxing, a time when you're not supposed to think about the things that stress you out and keep you upset day after day. It's a time when you step aside from it all and spend some time with yourself, do things for you. It's a time that I'm looking very forward to having. Since I'm not moving up there, the next best thing is to go visit.
Anyway, Mom and Dad are still in Florida. They spent Sunday and Monday in Mississippi with their best friends, casino hopping. They won some money and are giving me some. Mom also apparently is getting me a ring. I'm really excited for them to get home. I miss them a lot. It's so quiet without us all being together, whether we're laughing about something or bitching about something. My family means more to me than anyone can understand.
I have to leave now for class. I really don't want to, but I have to go. It's okay, only 4 weeks left. It will go by in a heartbeat, then it'll be time for summer and online classes. I cannot wait.
The summer's taking me to California, but I won't go until you know that what I say is true. When everything you've ever loved has left you, I'll be there, I'll be there for you.
36 days. I'm so happy to be heading back out there. I'm so excited to see everyone. I'm so excited to take a break from everything going on here. Once I step on that plane... no, once I get to the airport, it will really be a breath of fresh air. Something I haven't had in about 3 months. Don't get me wrong, I really do enjoy NC. It's just always good to step away from somewhere you spend everyday and just take a vacation. Vacations are relaxing, a time when you're not supposed to think about the things that stress you out and keep you upset day after day. It's a time when you step aside from it all and spend some time with yourself, do things for you. It's a time that I'm looking very forward to having. Since I'm not moving up there, the next best thing is to go visit.
Anyway, Mom and Dad are still in Florida. They spent Sunday and Monday in Mississippi with their best friends, casino hopping. They won some money and are giving me some. Mom also apparently is getting me a ring. I'm really excited for them to get home. I miss them a lot. It's so quiet without us all being together, whether we're laughing about something or bitching about something. My family means more to me than anyone can understand.
I have to leave now for class. I really don't want to, but I have to go. It's okay, only 4 weeks left. It will go by in a heartbeat, then it'll be time for summer and online classes. I cannot wait.
The summer's taking me to California, but I won't go until you know that what I say is true. When everything you've ever loved has left you, I'll be there, I'll be there for you.
Sunday, April 5, 2009
I guess this is growing up.
Well, leave it to Kohl's. As soon as I have a three day weekend and plan on making a two night trip to Greensboro with Madd, I get a bunch of hours. We were gonna go Thursday night-Saturday night, but NO. I have to work Thursday AND Friday, so we're going up Friday when I get off.
This weekend was seriously the best I've ever had. There was a little tension, but that's about it. I loved it. Although I'm sad it's over, because now I have to go to school tomorrow AND I have to sleep alone and it's creepy.
Not that much to update besides the amazing weekend. I'm not sure how I did on my biology test, I didn't study as well as I should have. Oh, and presentations were on Wednesday for lab, and my group definitely bullshitted our presentation and we got points for it. It was AWESOME.
38 days until my midwest vacation, and 30 days until school is out! I'm so ready, you have no earthly idea.
This weekend was seriously the best I've ever had. There was a little tension, but that's about it. I loved it. Although I'm sad it's over, because now I have to go to school tomorrow AND I have to sleep alone and it's creepy.
Not that much to update besides the amazing weekend. I'm not sure how I did on my biology test, I didn't study as well as I should have. Oh, and presentations were on Wednesday for lab, and my group definitely bullshitted our presentation and we got points for it. It was AWESOME.
38 days until my midwest vacation, and 30 days until school is out! I'm so ready, you have no earthly idea.
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
I can see clearly now, the rain is gone.
Well, thank you Mother Nature. The rain washed all the pollen off my car. But now it's all on the ground in huge piles, and I have a massive migrane. It sucks being allergic to something that happens in nature every year.
Anyway, Mom and Dad leave tomorrow morning to go to Florida for a week. I wish I wasn't in school so I could go with them. This is their third time going in a year. I haven't been since the summer I was entering senior year, and now it's about to be the summer of my junior year of college. Wow, that just made me feel really old to say. It's hard to believe that in a couple months, I'll be a junior IN COLLEGE. I'm still not used to saying, "Yeah, I'm in college." It feels off hahaha.
School is almost done. I have an A or B in journalism, a B in sociology, a B or C in precalculus, a C in photo, and I'm not sure in Biology. We have a test in Bio tomorrow, so I'm studying my brains out tonight to bring my grade up. I also have some catch-up work to do in journalism and I need to start working on my sociology paper.
I leave in 43 days for Chicago and I'm so excited. I get a 5-day break to go up to the Midwest and enjoy the company of the people there. Two weeks after I get home from up there, the boys will be down here. It's nice situation going on, haha.
I'm also going to Florida for a week, then I'm possibly going to California for a week as well! I'm so excited about it. So much traveling this summer. I need to work a lot! Plus I wanna get tattooed again soon. Working 4 hours a week really isn't cutting it, Kohl's!
Once school is out in May, I can start working truck again. That's a 7 hour shift and I'm back in the back the whole time. It'll work out well. Usually there's 2 trucks a week, plus if I work an extra shift or two on the floor or something, I'll have 20+ hours a week. That'd be about $150 a week, which if I work that for a month would give me $600 a month. I'd want to work more than that, but that's just a basic week.
Anyway, I'm in journalism and really need to work on these assignments I don't have done, so bye!
Anyway, Mom and Dad leave tomorrow morning to go to Florida for a week. I wish I wasn't in school so I could go with them. This is their third time going in a year. I haven't been since the summer I was entering senior year, and now it's about to be the summer of my junior year of college. Wow, that just made me feel really old to say. It's hard to believe that in a couple months, I'll be a junior IN COLLEGE. I'm still not used to saying, "Yeah, I'm in college." It feels off hahaha.
School is almost done. I have an A or B in journalism, a B in sociology, a B or C in precalculus, a C in photo, and I'm not sure in Biology. We have a test in Bio tomorrow, so I'm studying my brains out tonight to bring my grade up. I also have some catch-up work to do in journalism and I need to start working on my sociology paper.
I leave in 43 days for Chicago and I'm so excited. I get a 5-day break to go up to the Midwest and enjoy the company of the people there. Two weeks after I get home from up there, the boys will be down here. It's nice situation going on, haha.
I'm also going to Florida for a week, then I'm possibly going to California for a week as well! I'm so excited about it. So much traveling this summer. I need to work a lot! Plus I wanna get tattooed again soon. Working 4 hours a week really isn't cutting it, Kohl's!
Once school is out in May, I can start working truck again. That's a 7 hour shift and I'm back in the back the whole time. It'll work out well. Usually there's 2 trucks a week, plus if I work an extra shift or two on the floor or something, I'll have 20+ hours a week. That'd be about $150 a week, which if I work that for a month would give me $600 a month. I'd want to work more than that, but that's just a basic week.
Anyway, I'm in journalism and really need to work on these assignments I don't have done, so bye!
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