First, today is my 20th birthday. It doesn't feel like it at all. I can't believe I'm no longer a teenager.
Second, I got my apartment in Greensboro. I'll get my apartment number and stuff at the end of next month in my email.
Third, I spent the last week with my parents and Tia in Florida. It was so much fun, we didn't wanna come home. But as I've said before, all good things come to an end. It was much needed, and much appreciated.
Fourth, the last night we were in Florida, my parents saw my side and flipped out. They told me they weren't paying for me to go to school or live in my apartment. If I wanted all that, I had to pay since I went behind their backs and got another tattoo. But even in the last few days, we came to an agreement that if my mom bought some fade cream and I used it, that I'd be off the hook again.
Well, mom and dad went to a shop in town and talked to a tattoo artist, and I talked to Al, and mom and dad won't make me use the cream because it's more painful to remove even with the cream than to actually get a tattoo. So I'm pretty sure I get to keep all my ink AND go to school on them. That's such a relief.
Fifth, I'm in love with the new Hit the Lights CD. It's soooo good. They've always been good, but this CD has shown so many improvements. They've definitely taken a walk down the powerpop road for this one. Another new CD I can't wait for is the new Scene Aesthetic CD. One of the songs leaked, and I'm in love with it. Some of the lyrics are at the bottom.
Sixth, I got a new phone. I thought I was getting an iPhone when I got it on eBay, but I obviously didn't look at EVERYTHING in the description. It clearly says "MINI" on the back of the phone, even in the pictures, but I didn't pay attention to that. So now, I have a mini iPhone. It's a pain in the ass at times because of its size, but I like it.
Seventh, I move in less than two months and that kind of scares me. Yeah, I'll only be 3 hours from home, but still. I've spent the last 20 years with my parents, and now I'm out in another city by myself. I don't know what I'm going to do without Tia, though. We won't be able to just show up at each others' houses, no lunch dates in between classes, etc. It really sucks, but at least she can come visit on weekends. Also, luckily I'll have people like Aaron, Summer, and Britany not far at all from me. I won't be completely alone. The downside is I have to live with someone I don't know. That will be a huge change, but it's something I need to get used to. Hopefully my roommate is cool.
Eighth, I've been talking and spending more time with Zac. Yesterday was a pretty groundbreaking day for us over the last month. I'm going to the mountains with him for the 4th. That should be pretty fun. I've missed him so much. I was an idiot when we broke up. I'm just glad he's still willing to put up with me. I don't know what I'm gonna do without him when I go to Greensboro either. I'm proud of him, though. He's going back to school. That's something I've been telling him to do for the last few months. I'm glad he's actually doing it.
Well, that's pretty much everything going on in my life. I think I've written enough now. (:
PS. Happy birthday to meeeeeeeee.
For the longest time, I thought I lost the best of me, but I'll be damned if I quit now and that's for sure. All I ever wanted was for you to look at me and know I'm all yours. Like the penguins need their wings for deep cold water dives. Like the sun needs the moon to keep it on course. When you touch me, I know there is purpose in my life. Just know I'm all yours. I'm a mess. I confess that I'm nothing without you, and there's nothing I can do to prove to you I'm being honest. Now I see everything and yes, I've known it all along. I was so lost, but I'm back. And I finally know now where my heart belongs.
